For the first time in 18 years, I've been back to Paris, and have had a chance to review the impressions it made when I lived there as a student in 1986, and visited for the last time in 1991.
For example, the very essence of a Parisian
boulevard in my memory contains the burning acidic smell of car exhaust,
because serious emissions control for European cars came only the 1990s. I knew it would be different now, but I also
knew that the new impression would never shake off one I formed first. I will always notice the relatively pleasant
air quality now, always be comparing it to that of the primal Paris of my
memory.
Because the first impression of a place -- regardless of the age at which it
occurs -- is a childlike moment, and no life experience can change how we were
formed as children.
But here's what really matters:
1.
On a main street lined with local shops far out in the southeast, I come
upon a man who seems to hold not just a paper cup but also a key to the
city. He rests on his elbows and knees,
head down so we see only the short-cropped black hair, no face. His lower arms fold forward from his elbows
and his wrists fold again, twist upward with the anxiety of a screw, to hold
the paper cup. He seems, from what little I see, to be clean, well-groomed, not clearly young nor old.
He also seems carefully anonymous, showing no identifying features but the back of a head that could be that of a million French men. So it seems possible to take a photo, to preserve and share what he's offering, without betraying or exploiting him.
His pose expresses
natural anguish in way that's actually quite composed, sculptural. The styrofoam pads he's improvised -- and
notice how carefully placed they are -- suggest that he's ready, like a
meditator, to hold this pose for some time; certainly he doesn't move a muscle
in the three or so minutes I watch.
There must be some serenity inside his anguish.
He seems to quote a specific tradition of Parisian begging. In the Paris of the 1980s I recall young men
in striking kneeling positions, as though constructed by a choreographer, head
always down though not as completely concealed as this man's is. The practice then was to write on the
pavement, with chalk, an explanation of the beggar's circumstances. These ran to a paragraph or two, often so
long that interacting with such beggars was like perusing a museum. Look at the man briefly, form a slight
interest. Then, read the text
next to him, which tells his story in terms of dates and mishaps and relationships and ideologies,
like an earnest museum tag. Then
back to the folded man himself, notice his clothes, his hair, his stance, the
combination of suffering and dignity he's conveying. Perhaps glance down the line comparing him to
others nearby (for they often appeared in groups, as though perceiving each other as colleagues, not competitors.) Finally, make a decision,
centimes or francs.
As with everything, things have sped up.
This man begging in 2009 lacks an expalantory text, but I still see the
composition, the intention, the search for dignity on the very point of
suffering.
Were his face not concealed, of course, I'd never have taken a
picture -- nor left a few euros in his cup after doing so. The concealed face superficially
means shame, of course, and it also makes him everyman; he might look up and
turn out to be someone we know, or even ourselves. But beyond those obvious readings the
concealed face asks us to see him in his entire body, as a dancer does. The hackneyed word expression comes to
mind, and I dismiss it. All bodies
express, especially without faces to distract us from them, but the outward
energy of expression is almost the opposite of this man's condition.
Is he taking the pride of a performer in how well he's constructed his
shame?
No, that's not the most interesting question, becuase as with all great
art I can say little about artistic intention.
Yes, the styrofoam pads look designed, and the sheer power of the effect
suggests composition to me, but that's my cynical theatre-trained eye getting
in the way. Am I sure this man is a
beggar at all, rather than a theatre student or performance artist? No, but in Paris that doesn't quite
matter. Parisians simply do not police a
hard border between pretense and authenticity, or for that matter between art
and life. Everything is both, all the
time.
Whoever he is, I believe he's in pain, and that he's working. Parisians have an especially visible way of doing that. To people intent on avoiding pain, it looks like a sort of insult, a showing off. The British in particular find it maddening.
2.
Though my walk largely avoids tourist centres, I do plunge into the
Latin Quarter, where there's a shred of a medieval street pattern -- mazes of
very narrow lanes. It's all touristed to
the teeth, always has been. But I come
back because I attach to streetnames as well as to streets, and at the heart of
this maze is a tiny lane, less than two meters wide, called Rue du chat qui pêche ... the street of the fishing cat.
It's one of those rare names that cuts straight through all the
posturing and egotism of typical street names to elicit a pure moment of life
centures ago. The street gives out onto
a quay on the left bank of the Seine, and once, no doubt, it was just a muddy
track through filth down to the river.
But someone noticed a cat, enjoyed watching it fish, built some lore
around it, and hurled it toward eternity.
(Wikipedia advises that the street was named for a pub, but of course that doesn't
erase the cat, just sets it at one remove.)
It's just an outdoor hallway, really.
In one direction the explosion of light at the end blinds all else -- a
slice of a vast display on the walls of the Police headquarters across the
Seine, 30-foot high images of happy police offiers in all their earnest
diversity.
But the walls of the street
itself are rich with artistic claims, some not even signed, like this clownish
face claiming "La rue est à nous" -- the street is ours. Unsure if this nous includes me, I can feel embraced and rejected in the same gesture, an consummate Parisian sensation.
And there are signs of the usual energies of the theatre world, like
this poster, which in every detail is something I might have encountered on
this spot 23 years ago.
Almost any night in Paris, at least since the 1970s, it's been possible
to find an evening of theatre in which attractive young performers get naked for
some concept of social change. Translated
literally, the title sounds painfully banal:
"I buy! Or the decadence of
a consumer society." You just can't say that with a straight face in
English; at least not in 2009. But then in English you
wouldn't end a business letter with "We pray you accept the assurance of
our most distinguished sentiments," as I was taught to do in French. For better or worse French is a language of
excess, long defined by a kind of emotional arms race in which the most intense
and overwrought word must be used for expressing the most desiccated quantum of
feeling. It is your right as a Parisian to be presumed to be feeling the most deep and refined emotions, even
when buying toothpaste.
3.
At one point in my
wandering, I stumbled out of Saint Lazare railway station into the 9th
arrondissement, a frankly rather tedious collection of Napoleonic facades and
fast-moving streets full of rushing businessmen.
But almost by chance -- though surely part of
some planner's design -- I stumbled onto a gallery, one of those long, high
spaces that runs right through a building, or even through several, lined with
shops. This particular gallery had the
odd feeling, not uncommon in American shopping malls, that as I moved deeper
into it the artifice was falling away, as though at any moment I might be among
the rubbish bins. Fashionable shops gave
way to less fashionable ones, and unphotographically baroque embellishments to
the architecture also fell back to something that looked unremodelled, dusty in
an appealing way.
Names applied to
intersecting hallways, for example, spoke of a marketing mood that might have
moved shoppers over a century ago. But now, where the Galerie des Variétés met the Passage des Panoramas, a half-painted electrical cord dangled between them.
As the artifice declined so
too did the value of things for sale, until I reached a kind of terminal
economy in the darkest and mustiest section, where rubbish bins really were
imminent. Entire shops devoted to old
postcards, for sale for a euro or two apiece.
And finally, topping even that, tray upon tray of tiny, abundant, but
now useless things: Coins from before
the euro, still just a decade or two old so hardly collectible. Defunct cards
that once commanded telephone calling plans.
And I thought: We have achieved a dictatorship of the proletariat. Here are their millions of tiny disposable
sceptres.
4.
As time ran down, I knew
with increasing urgency that I had to get back to Parc des Buttes
Chaumont, deep in the city's east, to close some loop with my memories. When I
lived there in the 80s, it was still easy to get mugged in the downscale
eastern third of Paris, so there was always a certain frisson to trips to the
Buttes. Getting there also involved
using a small out-of-the-way metro line, the "7bis," and emerging, ideally, out
of one of Guimard's flowers at Botzaris station, as though I were a stamen.
Paris is mostly flat or
gently sloping, but there are two isolated hills, big chunks of volcanic rock
not yet digested by the slow work of river and wind. One is Montmartre in the north, once an arts
ghetto, now a tourist ghetto. The other
is Buttes Chaumont, which few tourists have found. Here, the steep rock has been carved to create
a lake with a very tall island -- really a pillar of rock perhaps 20 m high --
with a viewpoint on the top, linked to "mainland" by a high
pedestrian bridge. Paths wind along
cliff-faces, sometimes crossing fast-falling streams. It's a classic spectacle of sheer
verticality, such as one expects in California or Switzerland or New Zealand
but not in Paris. Parisians love it, and
fill it with all kinds of self-directed expression.
So here, a cafe in a park
makes no big deal of having a wonderful collection of old hanging lamps, all
seeming to guard a sensuous but sickly-green blob rising through the counter --
poised right on the treshhold between plant and animal.
And there's nothing remarkable about a block of scaffolding on a hillside announcing, in English, that there will be no miracles here. (The yellow police tape is a nice touch.)
There will be no miracles, so there must be art. In Paris, art must be everywhere. It's as essential to urban life as parking meters or fire hydrants. It shows that we're working, and in pain.